Actually, it's March 7th and I'm on the plane from Mexico City to LA.
I arrived in Oaxaca last Tuesday with my new friend, Marie, from Denmark.
This trip has been the first time Julio has seen me with or interacting with friends. For two years most of my interactions have been in Spanish and with his Spanish speaking friends who rarely attempt to speak with me and my bad Spanish. Marie and I tried most of our conversations in bad Spanish so Julio didn't feel excluded but that wasn't always possible. I'm excited to say my Spanish is better than a few people's that I met this trip. In fact two of my new Australian friends (also arrived in Oaxaca the same day as Marie and I) were impressed with my translations skills when Julio was with us.
Yesterday Julio and I took the bus from Oaxaca to Mexico City. Of course the 2nd class bus that should have taken 6 hours took 8. We checked in to the 180 pesos (currently around $10) a night hooker hotel and went straight to the all you can eat sushi buffet. Then walked back uncomfortably full.
The last couple days together had been remarkably good until between the time we finished eating delicious street food this morning and the time we walked to the metro. I'll spare the details but in the end I failed at non-reactivity. I left angry, sad and hurt. I turned my back on him and walked into the security line. His words were unacceptable but I'm the one feeling bad because I know better.
Now of course it seems I'm airing my dirty laundry (I did throw away about 5 pairs of dirty underwater). But in fact I'm asking you to keep me accountable for my actions. I want to be a better communicator, a better friend, a better family member. I know at times my stubbornness, frustration, judgement and anger prevent me from doing so. So, when you see me let's talk about communication, reactions, non-reactivity and responsibility for our actions. And love. And how true really love should behave.
Of course this conversation may require a beer or two. ;)
I can't think of much else right now and have used up a pack of facial tissues crying. If I think of some other interesting details of my trip I'll write again. Otherwise hope to see you soon!
March 8th- I have successfully opened all my mail, done my laundry went for a 3 mile walk and completed a day of work. Julio has apologized profusely and I've asked him to give me some space. Only time will tell. Module 2 dates have been looked at and plane tickets have been peaked at. :)
Love,
Serena
I arrived in Oaxaca last Tuesday with my new friend, Marie, from Denmark.
This trip has been the first time Julio has seen me with or interacting with friends. For two years most of my interactions have been in Spanish and with his Spanish speaking friends who rarely attempt to speak with me and my bad Spanish. Marie and I tried most of our conversations in bad Spanish so Julio didn't feel excluded but that wasn't always possible. I'm excited to say my Spanish is better than a few people's that I met this trip. In fact two of my new Australian friends (also arrived in Oaxaca the same day as Marie and I) were impressed with my translations skills when Julio was with us.
Yesterday Julio and I took the bus from Oaxaca to Mexico City. Of course the 2nd class bus that should have taken 6 hours took 8. We checked in to the 180 pesos (currently around $10) a night hooker hotel and went straight to the all you can eat sushi buffet. Then walked back uncomfortably full.
The last couple days together had been remarkably good until between the time we finished eating delicious street food this morning and the time we walked to the metro. I'll spare the details but in the end I failed at non-reactivity. I left angry, sad and hurt. I turned my back on him and walked into the security line. His words were unacceptable but I'm the one feeling bad because I know better.
Now of course it seems I'm airing my dirty laundry (I did throw away about 5 pairs of dirty underwater). But in fact I'm asking you to keep me accountable for my actions. I want to be a better communicator, a better friend, a better family member. I know at times my stubbornness, frustration, judgement and anger prevent me from doing so. So, when you see me let's talk about communication, reactions, non-reactivity and responsibility for our actions. And love. And how true really love should behave.
Of course this conversation may require a beer or two. ;)
I can't think of much else right now and have used up a pack of facial tissues crying. If I think of some other interesting details of my trip I'll write again. Otherwise hope to see you soon!
March 8th- I have successfully opened all my mail, done my laundry went for a 3 mile walk and completed a day of work. Julio has apologized profusely and I've asked him to give me some space. Only time will tell. Module 2 dates have been looked at and plane tickets have been peaked at. :)
Love,
Serena
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